Today feels like a good day.
Yesterday I decided to convert my “law office” into a writing space. I was able to move everything from law school, bar prep, and starting a law firm into the closet. I threw away some stuff. I made a promise to myself that I would weed through the papers that I put in the file cabinet and make a plan for what to do with the books by June 21. I moved my writing books onto the newly cleared shelf. I reorganized my desk. I bought a couple of new storage containers to keep the shelf looking pretty and clean.
Last night I attended a workshop on vision board that my friend organized. We heard the presenter’s story on her journey with vision boards, then we set about making our own small boards. I decided ahead of time that I would focus my vision board on writing. It was kind of difficult to find some images that went with that theme on the magazines that we had available, so I did a little bit of work once I got home.
In elementary school art classes I had a tendency to over-do every project. They were always so busy. Combine that with not being artistically inclined at all and it was a hot mess. Bless my parents for displaying anything I ever made. As a result, I made sure that everything I put on my board was intentional and purposefully selected. I am pleased with the final product and have it hanging in my writing space.
All of this comes as a result of deciding to make writing my job. For the past few months I had been sitting at my kitchen bar for the majority of the day thinking about writing, talking about writing, pretending to write, but really just procrastinating. Why? I don’t know. Probably fear of failure or rejection or something. Lack of focus and intention, I’m sure, were part of it too.
Monday I am going to start treating this like a job. I’m going to sit at my desk and get to work. I plan on using a day or two each week to look at the business aspects of writing–where to submit things, trying to do a little networking, reading up on craft issues. The goal is to be more serious and intentional about writing. I’m going to have to be more disciplined that I have been. I shudder to think of how much time I’ve spent scrolling through Instagram. I also have a tendency to text friends throughout the day. It’s pure avoidance.
I recently ordered Scratch by Manjula Martin. Martin compiled essays by and conducted interviews with a number of contemporary writers, such as Cheryl Strayed, Alexander Chee, and Roxane Gay, that discuss the profession of writing. There is the creative aspect, but you also want to get paid for it. So how? There are a number of roads.
Anyway, that’s just kind of a brief update on where I am, what I’ve been doing. I’m excited to see where this new intention and way of acting takes me.